Sunday scribbles #17: Ease of mind through discipline.

Today will be a short one since it has been an insanely busy week. For the past four days I have been working at another event, this time some sort of car fair. It's quite a big thing, where only luxury cars are displayed. It's a fun event to work at, but very exhausting. I had to be there very early and also worked late, except for today when it ended at 5 pm. Due to my planning, two of these days were also days during which I work out in the evening. One day of climbing, and the other complementary fitness. To cut a long story short: combined with my morning routine, the only free time I had at home was to eat a meal and read about five pages in a book. Thinking I would have been well rested, I was still living on less than 7 hours of sleep, which is fine to do for a while though. I was working with a new colleague, so the conversations quickly turned to: what do you do day to day, or what are you doing when you get home? Explaining how my life is looking right now, she replied: and you still have time to live? Thinking about it, this is a very interesting question. How is living actually defined? She meant going to a bar with friends, chilling at home or just doing relaxing stuff. The past week I hadn't done any of those things. Before the week started, I thought I would feel as if I would be missing out on stuff, but the opposite was actually true. Okay, I did miss time with my loved ones being my girl and our parrot, but I did not miss watching Youtube or doing other relaxing stuff. I actually felt very empowered thinking about it.

When finishing the job it was very hard to go climbing, or start working out at home. Even getting up earlier with the lack of sleep so I could continue my morning routine and take cold showers were harder than I thought. I didn't skip one thing that I imposed on myself, and this made me feel highly empowered mentally. It also calmed my mind a lot. So to answer her question: do you get to live? Well yes, 100%, and that is something I want to share with all of you. There will be many times where doing the things you oblige yourself to do, will be insanely hard and demotivating during the day. Especially when you're already exhausted. But I can assure you, that when you are disciplined to continue your routines during those hard times, that you will feel strongly empowered mentally. And this is coming from someone who talks himself down on small victories most of the times. Even now, while writing this, I am noticing this. I got home more exchausted than I have been in quite some time, both physically and mentally, and I didn't look forward to writing a blogpost at all. What would it matter if I skipped a week in my Sunday scribbles. Only a handful people would notice, they would understand. The problem is that one of those people is actually me. I know I would feel beat up if I skipped this due to some exhaustion. When starting this series I told myself I want to write something weekly. It doesn't even have to be of high value, because to me, every time I write something it is has more value than I would have expected. It often feels as if I am talking to myself when writing these blogs, as if I am empowering or inspiring myself. This is also something I like about these public posts, that if you want, you get to notice some of these strange communications which often stay in my head and mine alone. I can't promise they will mean anything to you, or to future readers, but it means a lot to me continuing this, so I will do my very best to not skip a week.

So small takeaway from my side: whenever it gets tough, or time gets scarce, please first push through on your main goals, you won't regret it. Remember that you're capable of channeling that inner Spartan spirit of pushing through, as is talked about in stories like the Battle of Thermopylae.

Anyway, after doing what I obliged myself to do, I will now go relax and watch some Rings of Power. Now I can actually say I deserved my time to rest, peace out!